Mar. 6th, 2018

Diary of a Broadway Dream: Chapter 8

Diary of a Broadway Dream: 

Chapter 8...  
„What does he want from me, What should I try to be” - a chorus line 
It has been extremely surreal the past few weeks, playing my favorite show, whilst navigating my first audition season in New York... a show which highlights and calls upon that skill set required, and those raw emotions that manifest whilst auditioning for a job in our business. 
Auditioning... It’s not easy, and it never has been... after 20 years in the business, starting over again in New York City, and going through auditions on a daily basis with some of the businesses most talented people, is... well, exciting and challenging. 
I think it requires confidence, strength of character and extreme courage of heart... 
These audition days, start from deliberation on how to do your hair, how much make up to wear, what outfit, how do you present yourself, present your body, which side of your personality do you show? What shoes do you take, what is the floor surface going to be like, sticky or slippery. Do they want you to be confident and charming when you walk in the room, or humble and composed. Do you make bold choices in your scenes, or stick to something more neutral. What song should you choose, will they want a sweeter and more perfected sound, or something more powerful and wild.
I have been auditioning almost every day here, for just under 2 months now, and have tried everything. I have tried to show all sides of me, in the process finding things I had no idea I could do, and finding things I really don’t do as well as I thought I did. It is a constant lesson and discovery of oneself... a wonderful, complex, and sometimes extremely painful journey. 
It’s sometimes, extremely hard to make that choice, what side to show, what shoes to wear, how much heart to leave in the room, for fear of it being broken, yet again... I have had some amazing and inspiring experiences, and have also fallen flat on my face a number of times now... I have been rewarded some victories, and have also been denied a few jobs that I really would have loved to do. 
It’s hard, rejection.. on a daily basis. Especially when you are in it with all of your heart and soul, or especially if you let yourself believe, even for the smallest moment, that this one could be a possibility. It’s even harder to wake up the next morning, put your make up on, grab your heels, tights, and songbook and start all over again... but, that’s what you have to do, keep on going. Keep on believing that the right job for you is out there somewhere. 
I have the utmost respect for every single person in this industry, living this every day.. especially in New York City, where these feelings seem to be magnified and intensified. 
I guess, the most important thing I have learned in these past few months is... “Just be Yourself”. Be the best version of yourself on that day that you possibly can be. Don’t try and be what you think they want you to be... as we can never possibly know what they truly want. 
They want brilliant, that’s for certain... and, we can only be truly brilliant and sparkle, when we are truly, deeply and honestly committed to our own special uniqueness. 
Don’t give up, keep working, and above all keep dreaming!! Love what you chose for your journey with all of your heart, and know how unique you are... The rest will fall into place exactly as it should. 

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Feb. 23rd, 2018

This is your 30 minute call...

 

This is your 30 minute call... 
I want to say, the biggest “Thank you” to everyone who continues to support me on this insane journey... 
How blessed am I, that my first Opening here in this wonderful city, is my very favorite girl #cassie 
Feeling grateful... Honestly, ever so grateful! 
#love #somuchlove in my #heart

 

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Feb. 22nd, 2018

Diary of a Broadway Dream: Chapter 7

Diary of a Broadway Dream: 
Chapter 7... 
Yesterday I was at a final call back for a show called Jerome Robbins' Broadway, which is being performed this summer with direction and choreography by one of Jerome Robbins original assistants on the piece. This means original, Legend's choreography, handed down, directly from those closest to the man…. CRAZY! 
I had to slap myself the past few days, I mean, this is the choreography I grew up watching, the stuff that inspired me to keep on dancing, that still inspires me to keep on chasing my crazy dream. I learned original west side story choreography, which is a dream come true in itself, then a few dancers were asked to stay and audition the tony/maria partner section from the west side story dream ballet. This older dancer was not one of them, but I stayed outside a moment and stuck my face to the tiny window to watch the magic that was being created in the room. I was not able to move myself away from my spot in the window, mesmerized by these beautiful young dancers, learning this stunning piece of choreography. I had tears in my eyes watching them discover their new partner, watching them navigate the difficult lifts, and watching the boys try and figure out how to make their girl float through the air like a breeze, whilst holding her on one arm above their heads. I think dancers are such special creatures, so much respect for one another, so much love and understanding…. I mean, these young people have just met one another, are partnered together, and in a matter of 30 or so minutes are dancing a love duet, with fire in their belly, love in the way they touch one another, and compassion and joy sparkling in their eyes. The respect and immediate, physical and emotional intimacy dancers can create, is something to be celebrated. 
Maybe it is the utter brilliance of Mr Robbins work that is West Side Story, the timeless, breathtaking choreography that melts your heart... but for me yesterday, peering through that tiny window, it was like witnessing two young people meet, dance, and fall in love at first sight. Indescribable, and nothing less than magical.
New York City... you can still smell the Legends 

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Feb. 16th, 2018

#whatididforlove

#whatididforlove 
I though I would never get to see her again, never get to hear and sing this wonderful, wonderful score! But as the stars would have it... Here I am, and there is Marylou... Back in my favorite chair in the “Damen Solo Maske”  at the fabulous @komischeoperberlin 
Feeling extremely grateful to once more, play this extraordinary house with such wildly talented artists! 
Now... I hope I remember my steps #kickballchange and... #splits 
“Märchen im Grand Hotel” 
#paulabraham #operetta #berlin #spontaneous 

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Feb. 9th, 2018

Diary of a Broadway Dream: Chapter 6

Diary of a Broadway Dream: 
Chapter 6... 
Cassie’s back 
I am thrilled to announce that I will be jumping into the role of Cassie, at the “Weschester Broadway Theatre” production of A Chorus Line 
Beginning 23rd of February 
It’s a small theatre, just 30 minutes out of the city, and I am feeling extremely grateful to have a job so soon after arriving here, especially as it’s the role that made my #broadwaydream a possibility in the first place 
I just hope I can still do it, she’s not easy... 

#broadwaydreams  #stillworkingonit 
#kickballchange

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